Friday, June 27, 2008

Blogger, Why Don't You Remember Me?

I have to re-login to blogger every day. I check the little 'remember me' check box, but as the sun rises, blogger forgets who I am yet again. Am I really that boring that websites forget my name soon after I leave the room?

Corinne and the kids are about to leave on a camping adventure and then a visit to the beach. I will be at home slaving away, financing the entire trip. Ha. I really do wish I could go, but I've burned up enough vacation days this year already and am extremely behind at work.

It's ok. I'm looking forward to a weeks worth of pizza and chicken tenders.

Since the family will soon be departing and I feel slightly guilty that I'm not going along, I decided we should spend some quality time together as a family. So we did dinner and a movie.

I'm glad restaurants have outside seating, because the kids can run around without pissing everyone off completely. I think people's expectations of behaviour drops considerably if you're outside.

They were pretty well behaved actually.

We went to see WALL-E. It was great. Most everything from Pixar is great, but this was really good. Completely recommend it.

Thursday, June 26, 2008

Toothless


Charles lost his second top front tooth a couple of days ago. He's officially gummy. He actually lost his teeth out of order. He started with his bottom front, instead of the top ones. He's all caught up now.


Wednesday, June 25, 2008

Happy Anniversary

Corinne and I just celebrated our 8th Anniversary. She cooked a wonderful meal of Beef Wellington and stuffed mushrooms. I gave her a pyrex bowl with a red cover full of Snickers and Almond joys. I know I'm a real big spender, but we promised each other not to spend a lot of money.

I'm swamped at work, so I'll update later about the finer points of marriage from 8 year veteran's perspective.

Monday, June 23, 2008

Oil Companies Suck

The price of gas is obviously a pretty hot topic right now. Gas is about 3.92 for Regular Unleaded in Oxford right now. I spoke to a co-worker in central California and he's paying about 4.48 for the same thing.

I hear a lot of talk about how it's not really the oil company's fault, that they're just trying to get by like everyone else and it makes me want to puke. Sure there are economics involved, i.e. supply and demand, but if you honestly believe that's the only reason that gas is going up, you're crazy.

It's no coincidence that we're paying more at the pump than ever before and the oil companies are making more money than any other company ever in the history of the United States every year. 11.66 billion dollars every three months for ExxonMobil.

That's profit. That means after they paid all of their bills, employees, taxes, etc. they had over 11 billion dollars left over for a 3 month period!

To put that in perspective, that's roughly $38.30 per every person in the US.

If we looked at driving age citizens only and all of the oil companies' profits, I think we would find where that extra $50.00 towards gas we're paying is going every month. It's going in their pockets.

Now here's a little mystery that makes me think the oil companies are screwing us pretty good. Will someone explain to me why if I drive 90 miles away, I can pay $.15 less per gallon? In more populated areas, I can drive 4 blocks and get the same results. Why is that?

I thought there were no margins for the gas station owners. It's not their fault gas is so expensive according to everyone. They barely make any money from gas at all. I actually believe them on that, but I'm still left scratching my head.

A bag of chips costs the same amount whether I buy them in Mississippi or Alabama. So what makes gas so special that the price fluctuates so greatly? And it's not just taxes, unless there are city taxes on gas. To my knowledge, there isn't other than regular sales tax.

The reason that this is perplexing is because the price of gas goes up when something global happens. An oil field gets bombed in Kenya. Gas prices go up for everyone. Yet, I'm getting charged at a very local level. So if everyone is paying the same thing for oil, shouldn't the prices be the same across the country (minus state taxes)? Why is CA so much more expensive? What does this all mean? That gas prices are more arbitrary than the oil companies will admit. They say it's a set figure and they can't help it, but they can charge less in one area and much more in another. Seems to me that they're deciding how much it costs, not the "global market".

Oil people are sitting there yelling at the screen going "of course you idiot! It's all about supply and demand! Free market, free market, free....!!"

So let's look at a free market. What's a key factor in a free market. Low barriers to entry. What does that mean? It means that when oil companies become to monopolistic, someone can come along and start an oil company and undercut them. This stops the oil companies from over charging out of fear that an upstart will take away their business.

Anyone want to start an oil company? It's a free market after all. Oh wait. Nope, the barrier is ridiculously high, which means this idea that's it a free market is bullshit. So if it's not a free market what is it?

It's a monopoly. The oil companies are controlling the price of gas. Plain and simple. They raise the price on speculation and lower it only slightly when we complain loudly enough. Once the bitching dies down, they raise it again. Do not trust them.

Here's another nice fact about oil companies. They're complaining that if oil was cheaper, they would be able to provide cheaper gas. So please let us drill in protected wilderness. We'll do it without harming the environment.

Why is this bullshit? First off, they have consistently harmed the environment and shown no regard for the environment. Remember Exxon Valdez? Guess how much they paid for that mess? Umm, nothing. It happened in 1989 and Exxon is still appealing.

Second, they haven't drilled in all of the spaces they have available now. Why? It costs too much. So they want easier targets, like national parks.

Third, this is the same company that tried to drill protected wetlands in Florida because there was a drought and the land was no longer "wet". What a bunch of assholes.

The list goes on, but this post is long enough already.

In summary oil companies suck. They're proven liars and greedy bastards. Do not trust them.

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Sooooo....

Well that didn't take long. April was my first post and here I am already behind. Geez, even I am amazed by my slackiness.
So what brings me back? My grandma died.

I love my grandma. She was one of the few constants in my life. Both of my grandparents served as an inspiration for me. Their love and personalities had a clear influence on the type of person I have become. I try to model myself after my grandpa's clear and tough outlook on life and my grandma's unwavering nature and generous personality.

Growing up, Grandma was always there to add a little joy to my life. She would send cards with $5.00 for almost every holiday without fail. Halloween, Valentine's Day, Thanksgiving, Birthdays, Anniversary, etc.; I could always count on a card from her. It would brighten my day and offer a much needed foundation to my life.

Christmas was her favorite time. Grandma's "goodie bags" became legendary in our family and were the most anticipated part of Christmas morning. She would spend all year gathering random items and surprises that she knew we would like and place them in a large burlap bag. They were never expensive items or luxurious, just little things that you knew she picked out just for you. She also included a $50.00 bill in each bag with a small bank envelope that framed the president so you could "buy something you'd like."

I once told Grandma when I was 15 that I liked a certain candy called "Sixlets." After that, I got a package of them every year in my bag. It was little personal things like this that would remind me how much my Grandma loved me, no matter how far I lived from her or how often I visited.

When I got older and Grandma couldn't get around as well, I took delight in being able to repay all of the care that she had shown me. I loved buying her surprises and little presents because she took so much joy in receiving them. I loved being able to run errands and fix things around the house for her because she genuinely appreciated it. Our roles had reversed a little and it was my turn to spoil her and we both enjoyed it.

Grandma has had some tough times in the last few decades. When my grandpa died, it was heartbreaking. I can only say that I hope my own marriage will live up to the love the two felt for each other.

Grandma was sad, but she never gave up living. She stayed busy and maintained the life they had started together. In 1996 when Hurricane Fran washed away the house they lived in for 17 years and all of the mementos they had collected through out their lives, Grandma mourned again. But she didn't give up. She moved to Rose Hill and began the process of rebuilding. There was never any question as to if she would live on the beach again, even though her neighbors and friends all sold their properties and moved on. Grandma was going to rebuild and start over at age 70.

That spot on Topsail Island is where her husband took his last breath. It's where his ashes were scattered. It's also where her daughter-in-law's ashes were scattered. Grandma was determined not to leave that spot.

So as she reached her 80's and could only walk down the ramp to get her paper and mail once every two days, I began to worry that time would win out over Grandma's determination. She couldn't stand up longer than 30 minutes at a time and she had long ago stopped walking down her back steps to the beach. I kept thinking it was ridiculous that she lived by herself in a house so ill suited for someone in her condition, but I kept my thoughts to myself and I did what I could to help her stay longer.
Grandma never let her health get in the way of living her life. She adapted to each difficulty with walkers and medical alerts, with loud tv's and orthopedic pillows. I'll never forget the last time I visited her. She asked me to take her car for an oil change and inspection sticker. When I brought the car in, I checked the mileage. 36,000 miles on a 7 year old car. She hadn't driven the car in a year, but she knew the inspection sticker needed renewing and she wanted it done.
This was my Grandma. She was not going to let old age stop her from living her life.

My dad called me late Sunday evening and told me that Grandma was going to the hospital in an ambulance. I was surprised because I had spoken to her on Saturday and she had said she was doing fine. But apparently Sunday morning she woke up feeling strange and shaky. My aunt spoke to her on the phone and decided to spend the night with her and take her to the doctor on Monday. But after spending some time with her she decided that it was best to go the hospital right away.

At 2:20 AM, I got a phone call from my sister telling me Grandma had had a stroke and was in a coma and on life support. The doctor's didn't expect her to make it through the night. My dad was on the way to NC and they would call if anything changed. I didn't sleep much that night. I got up early and got ready for work. I wasn't really sure what to do.

At 7:45 AM I felt a wave of sadness wash over me and I cried for the first time. I didn't know it at the time, but my Grandma had just died. I went to work and around 9:00 AM my dad called and let me know that Grandma had passed. I spent the next 12 hours working and getting ready to leave for the rest of the week.

Grandma was to be cremated and have her ashes spread over the same stretch of ocean as her loved ones. There were some difficulties in finding a pilot and plane capable of making the illegal flight to spread the ashes and it was decided that the three grandsons would spread the ashes. We were to paddle out on surfboards, past the breakers, and spread the ashes in the ocean.

Walking into the ocean with a surfboard under one arm and my Grandma's ashes in my other hand was surreal to say the least. This is what she would have wanted. The waves were choppy and there was no clear line of breakers. It was difficult. At one point after paddling and getting pounded by waves, my worse nightmare occurred. A wave crashed into me and washed away the plastic container I had tucked between my chin and surf board. I quickly turned and started swimming back towards the box. I caught it about 15 feet from the coast line. Exhausted, I turned back once more to try and swim out into the water and join my cousins.

I struggled for what felt like forever, but finally made it far enough out that the waves were only breaking at the tips. My cousins and I were spread out, but we yelled out each other to start the process. We opened the boxes and let the ashes free. Surprisingly, they didn't swirl around like I was afraid of, but dropped cleanly into the water. I sat on my board and watched as they dissipated through out the water.We sat there for a little while and then paddled back in. I was completely spent. There is a picture my uncle took of the three of us walking back and I look like I'm smiling. I'm not, I'm wincing.


I realize now how the burial was fitting. It was fitting of course, that she be buried in the ocean she loved so much, along side the people she loved so much, by the people that loved her so much. But it was fitting that our final chore for Grandma was a struggle. A testament to the love we felt for her. A testament to her struggle to live by herself on the beach she loved so much. A testament to how well she taught us the life lesson to never give up, no matter how hard the task may be.

I love my Grandma.